[22] a dischordant note

[catatonicanon]

[This entry is FORWARD-DATED to October 24th. She will reply to this entry for a while before going to seek out Fugue.]

9:32:33
9:32:56

that was when my brother stabbed me
that is when i will die

23 years, 23 seconds, does it make much of a difference in the end?

i am renee. some call me mother. some call me bacon, or christopher walken, or charles, or cheese, or kaleidoscope, or cancer?, or canon, or any other name.

remmy created this world so he wouldn't have to face the music
so close as children, but i grew up
he never did

i wanted him to wake up
i thought it would all be over
_{I HATED THIS PLACE}
i hated his creation

all i wanted was to be left to die in peace
and not have to live out HIS delusional fantasy

i knew none of this was real, none of you were real

yet he is waking up, and it persists

reality no longer matters
all of you have gone beyond his dream
ALL OF YOU have become something more than his dream
you will have another chance

and i will take my chance to have my death

alas! my time has come
the song is coming to an end

the fourth and fifth floors belong to me
they will vanish

goodbye
goodbye
goodbye

goodnight, sweet princess

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[[OOC: This is a plain-text "translation" of the above entry; it does not appear in the journals and is just for ease of reading for players.]]

9:32:33
9:32:56

that was when my brother stabbed me
that is when i will die

23 years, 23 seconds, does it make much of a difference in the end?

i am renee. some call me mother. some call me bacon, or christopher walken, or charles, or cheese, or kaleidoscope, or cancer?, or canon, or any other name.

remmy created this world so he wouldn't have to face the music. so close as children, but i grew up. he never did

i wanted him to wake up. i thought it would all be over. I HATED THIS PLACE. i hated his creation. all i wanted was to be left to die in peace and not have to live out HIS delusional fantasy

i knew none of this was real, none of you were real- yet he is waking up, and it persists

reality no longer matters. all of you have gone beyond his dream, ALL OF YOU have become something more than his dream. you will have another chance and i will take my chance to have my death

alas! my time has come
the song is coming to an end

the fourth and fifth floors belong to me
they will vanish

goodbye
goodbye
goodbye

goodnight, sweet princess

Comments

[esoteric_rose.livejournal.com]

[There are a thousand things she could say, a thousand words that run through her head as she reads and rereads the entry. Words on death, on chance, on life and reality...and yet nothing seems to fit within the bounds of phrasing except something borrowed, the obvious reply but somehow not cliché today.]

And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.

[catatonicanon]

a sweet note to end my life on

[spandexisyouth]

I hope that your rest is peaceful, Canada.

I will miss you.

[catatonicanon]

death will be a grand adventure

[lingeringlegacy]

What are you planning to do?

[catatonicanon]

find remmy and wake him up

he has retreated here for too long

[feathered-earth.livejournal.com]

I thought so. We're real, aren't we?

I'm sorry for what happened to you. Good luck in the afterlife... if you run into an old man named Galuf, tell him Krile says hello.

[catatonicanon]

reality is fluid

just like this world was fluid according to his whims

it has become all of yours

who knows who i shall meet? death will be another adventure, after all

[live_ringer]

[He's not sure if what he's feeling for Renée necessarily counts as sympathy, but it's something close. Being kept from moving on, kept in the past by your brother's wishes would be... an unpleasant fate. But there's something a little more pressing to address than that.]

Don't get me wrong, it's great to know I'm a 'real boy' now, at least by the standards of this place. Better to hear you say we have a second chance.

But if the dream is ending... where will that leave us?

[catatonicanon]

your whims were beginning to re-shape his reality

it's how you became more

dreams and wishes and desires are altering the landscape

[treeleopardess]

And you deserve your rest. I hope it's a peaceful one.

[catatonicanon]

knowing i am dead has driven me mad for the years this place has been in existence

nothing could be more peaceful than finally being able to have it

[mythgravenblade.livejournal.com]

I am sorry you were kept to suffer for so long, but know that living in a world with you has changed many--I believe, for the better.

Sleep.

[catatonicanon]

it's strange to think

i hated you all and hated this place for so long, because i believed you would all vanish

my eyes open here as they close outside of here

[notpissedoff]

Twenty-three years, or seconds. Is that how long Edensphere has existed?

If your floors will vanish... what of his floors?

[catatonicanon]

yes, yes, 23 years

his floors will change

OUR floor remains

[snowburned.livejournal.com]

Be at rest.

[catatonicanon]

after so long

it is hard to believe it is here

[ice_echani]

Exile. I hope your return journey is a peaceful one, and that he might see clearly.

[catatonicanon]

he will

i could always make him listen eventually

[fourtunate.livejournal.com]

It's a pleasure to meet you, Renee.

Though, I wouldn't worry too much about death. I hardly think it can be that bad.

[catatonicanon]

after 23 years, i welcome the rest

i hope you go on to many more adventures, key!

[weaver-girl.livejournal.com]

Please take care, Renée.

[catatonicanon]

23 years of waiting for this point

i will take care in death, and all of you will in life

a great end to the dischordant symphony

[pimpcoatbankai.livejournal.com]

[Hamlet, huh?]

So I guess... The rest is silence.

[catatonicanon]

silence for me

it is my greatest desire

but the play goes on and on for others

[paintitgray.livejournal.com]

A chance to have your death?

You're brave.

If this is all ending, [pause] maybe I'll see you there.

so yeah, sorry this is so late x_x

[catatonicanon]

not even i know what will happen after death

i don't believe i'm that brave... just tired

tired

23 years of knowing this was coming